With wild and reckless abandon

Yesterday was a a monster of a day, otherwise known as evil ‘everything sucks’ Tuesday. It was one of those days where everything I touched turned to dust. I broke unimaginable amount of crockery by accident (and felt like breaking more on purpose by the end of the day!), the website I’m working on broke for no discernible reason and the new project I was working on got shelved from lack of funding. In short, it just sucked.

As a result, this morning I was feeling just a little bit wild, unpredictable and devil may care. I have these moods from time to time, and they most commonly come upon me when I’m bummed and feel like I have nothing left to lose, however far that may be from the truth.

These are the sorts of moods that often precede me doing something indefinably stupid, including for example:

• Pointing out to my boss that he’s an idiot (Done that)
• Quitting my job when I have nothing to take its place and not a lot in the way of savings (and that)
• Taken off to a new city or country just because I bloody well can (yep to that on multiple counts)
• Wandering the streets alone and unprotected in the midde of the night and into the early hours of the morning (umm, that too)

Well you get the general idea. So when I woke up feeling slightly wild, irresponsible and ‘damn it all’ this morning, you can imagine my trepidation knowing I had a full day of work at the emporium of mad metaphysical delights. It’s the sort of mood where I could have some real fun, share some of my own metaphysical insights, randomly hug customers or grab them as the mood takes amongst others and generally inflict upon them the insanity they inflict upon me from day to day.

The temptation to tell the lady who thought she was a mermaid, who told me she’d been electrocuted by God that she was (a) crazy and (b) that I quite like fried fish … absolutely overwhelming to the point that I REALLY don’t know how I contained myself.

I’ll pass through it soon enough to do the sensible thing and fight my way back to take my dreams and , as Dolly Parton says ‘shine, design, refine until they come true‘ but for now I’m battling the desire to spare the tact, tell people exactly what I think of them with added vitriol and ride off into the sunset eating the biggest chocolate cake you ever saw.

Tags: Rant